I knew it was going to happen today, but that didn't make it any easier.
As I walked into the office this morning, a guy commented to me "today is not going to be fun", to which I replied "yah, today is going to suck".
Just as I was about to take the elevator up to my floor, I saw one of my colleagues walking out with the dreaded box of personal items. I stopped her, and found out that it was true. She was laid off. We said our goodbyes, and as she walked out, I noticed that there was a line of taxis waiting outside our office.
Oh God. It's real. It's happening.
After I got to my desk, I started getting email after email about people who were let go. One of my colleagues was instant messaging me about how nervous he was, when all the sudden his messages stopped. He called me later to tell me that he'd been let go.
So many people. Some I've know since the first day I started at my firm. Some I've worked with at my firm for almost 15 years. One who is one of my very best friends. We ate lunch together practically every day.
I spent a lot of the day comforting those who had left, and those who were still there.
I am so sad.
I feel like I need to be strong. Who am I to feel sorry for myself? I survived.
I'm so grateful to still have my job. Yet, at some point, all of this is probably going to hit me. Then, maybe I'll let myself feel it.
Right now, this economy can kiss my ass.